catching up

I am trying to keep up with posting and writing about me but its becoming hard because i just found out that i have no kind of self motivation or self discipline  .. all i know is that i need to keep up but my life has not been to exciting so i hope that i can think of some thing to write about i am learning tho how to keep my image in suitable manner but we'll see how this all works out ..i have found a few shows that are very interesting but ne ways this is all i feel like writing ...till next time..

hokulani

I am freezing

It's flipping cold....


why does today have to be freezing so i woke up today and saw snow on the mountians  why....there is not fall.. any more i just wanted to enjoy the leaves falling the gradual coldness...not just jump from summer to winter booooo....well on a good note i went to my brothers game today and it was fun even though they lost ..


Its sucks that they couldn't keep a winning streak after they crushed granger last thrusday oh well....

so i was suppose to start my fasting today so didn't work i swear i though i had everything for it but when i came home from my brothers game wanting to prepare my dinner i looked at the recipie and i didn't have what i needed to make my soup boo stupit me ...
lol well tomorrow is going to be a better day because that will be the day that i will start my fast for sure .

I know that i need to do this but there is some things that i make get in my way and feel like i can't control it but it is going to be over starting tomorrow ..

well i don't really have much to say today on this blog and i don't have a picture to put up because i didn't really have an adventure which is lame i need to kick my self into gear and get my self started on life and enjoying it every moment of it ....


well lets see how tomorrow goes ....or should i say the weekend goes ...can't wait ..

bye,,
  hokulani

the first day of the rest of my life

dear blog,

   today was a day i woke up around twelve  for some reason.i have been exausted idk why. lol but ne ways i want to say that i have had a good day today, i opened up a new blog like i said i would just targeting my pcos.

i didn't really get to go on an adventure today like i was planning but i had in my head alot of things that i wanted to put down but it kind of all went out the window.

well for starters i went i kind of stayed home went through some books about juicing and am going to start a juicing fast tomorrow hopening that it goes well and am really ready for my body to feel the way i want it to and the way its been needing to so yeay for that .

uh i am extreamly excited because my lil bro who has been gone for four months is going to be  coming home on sat whoop whoop for that lol...my other two lil brothers play another round of foot ball tomorrow so yea this is going to be exciting..

i  was going to talk about a few things and now i am blank ahhhhh this sucks but  one thing i do want to say is tha t i went shopping for my fruits and veggies today well mainly veggies and it is what i am going to use to juice ...

and one other thing i was watching the news today and i heard that well they were broadcasting that the inventor of apple the company had passed today so i just want to say that my heart goes out to his family and i hope that they are ok ... and that he was a and is a very smart man and i thank him for co inventing the company because i love his products lol hence me using one now lol ...

oh yea and last night i while i was blogging my first post i was eatting some pretzel m&m's and came across an intersting one 

it looked like this:

i just thought it was funny cause it was different then the rest....

oh and one other thing i have  started a video journal hoping that this gives me motivation to start getting on track with what i need also helping me remember things lol ...

well hope fully i have a better adventure tomorrow but i might not due to the weather its suppose to be 20x's worse then today it was like 56 degrees out side ahhhh winter is coming so not excited for it i still need to get ready need new tires and clothes and food and prep just needs to be done i thought that i would at least have the rest of oct to do it but i guess not stupid utah weather gosh...

well ne ways as for the rest of the night i have to say it was a good day all in all my family is all home safe and sound and hubby is laying in bed with me i got to say that i lml ...

gnight,

hokulani

The begining

Dear Blog,
          so Today is the day of reckoning I am officially a blogger (lol)..I tried starting one a few months ago but that never worked. "I ended up working a lot and forgetting" OOPPSS!!
my fault. Oh well , like I always say there is always room for new beginnings. So currently the way i feel about this blog and how i want to go about working on this . Is that it is going to be like a journal to me which in most cases I understand people use it for . So since I suck at writing all the time in the journal and I always catch my husband snooping through it and most importantly I am on this computer a lot I am going to do it this way > LOL< . 


I think it will help me in the long run and make me feel better in a lot of ways and also it gives me something to put all my adventures on and put old and new memories i am excited I can't wait .


This is going to be a little or a lot about me lol. here I go...


I am a 24 yr old woman. I live in Utah...and i have pretty much lived here my whole life. I was born in san diego , california. and was raised part of my life in Hawaii Makakilo and laie. My parents my mother is hawaiian mixed with others(we call it Hienz 49) and my father he is samoan. It is wonderful being of mixed race I get to enjoy the beauty of multiple cultures. but I am married to a wonderful man we have known each other since high school. we have been married for 3 1/2  years and they all have been very challenging and wonderful. he is samoan and also a hienz 49 him self .. we are both very different people . we have learned alot from one another and gained more being married. 


I have 3 brothers and they all wonderful . considering the fact that siblings have there fights but my family is different lol its kinda weird cause we get into a little  bickering moments but two sec later we are right back to laughing and talking like nothing had happened... I have a niece and a nephew.who i love to death and i wish that i could be with them every waking moment but i can't due to current conditions. but i always want them to know that i love them dearly and i wish the world for them ..


I hope that one day we can all be a happy family .. 


I must say that I am a married women with no children currently i do want them but i have been diagnosed with PCOS.(polycystic  ovarian syndrome )but have been i guess i could say in 2007 i have beed struggling with this for all these years and i can't seem to get ahold of it and control it ... i wish that there was a way to just like cut the feeling at all for wanting the bad food with out have to go through all the pain .but i am working and that is another reason i kind of wanted to start this is because maybe it will give me some kind of motivation to work harder then i am because i am cheating my self more then i should and i know it so we will see  and i think i will have to work on getting a section for this particular subject because it is a subject all it is self . but me and my husband have been wanting children together since before we got married and have not seen any results in it currently. But we are praying that it will happen one day SOON...


Lastly I would just like to say that I am trying to go back to school and i am working on getting another job and needing to get my life on track i am wanting a degree in social work i just love the mental health and social work field .. like i have said in my interest section that i love to help people and that is what i am hoping to achieve her in the next  few months so we will see.


gnight blog..


Hokulani