Hi,
I just would like to start off by saying that I have always had a knack for starting things and never continuing them . But I am back in action and with lots to say and talk about!!
So where to start I have recently just quit my job of 6 months more like a personal leave of absence and for a very good reason I must say. But not to get to far ahead of my self let me start out by starting from where i left off... FEB 2012 practically a year and a half ago.
So I never found a job until a month after I had stopped blogging which was in march of 2012,
I was so excited to get my life back into order and be able to move out and live my life with just me and my husband YEAYEEE!! Finally I was excited and anxious at the same time and didn't know what to do with all of it but as usual my life had a different direction for me. I was employed at Deseret Industries for about a year until they had helped me find my current job I just left. back on track within that year alot had happened to me to my family and I just didn't know what to do with all my emotions and didn't know how to take in all the things that have happened to me.
My husband after trying for so long finally got into the job that he was wanting for a very long time since he was able to work. He became employed as an accessory shop worker for Sky West Airlines!!
Oh my can I just tell you once I found out he got the job I was extremely excited I was like finally we are moving forward in our lives and getting somewhere I got my job and he got a better paying job. So moving out was definitely going to be our next move in life.
But instead our heavenly father had a different direction for us again.
We ended up not moving out and still haven't but after him getting employed last august we just payed bills and lived like we could and then to my surprise I thought that we were or at least I was going to be bringing in 2013 with a bang but turned out that a person whom I thought was family and another person whom I thought was a bff or at least a close friend became enemies and disowned really quick.
I have always been the type of girl who would make friends and keep them and then only have a fist full of bff's but when I came across a girl that became a bestie per say my life changed even more then I wanted it to we started being friends around I think like 2010 no issues till I introduced her to my at the time sister but really was a sister in law but we were so close that we were practically sisters. I had introduced them and then one day there were making conversation about things I have told one but not the other but honestly till this day I still believe that I was not talking bad I was just venting. Any way then from then on me and my at the time sister just completely stopped talking.
And as of now we no longer say anything to one another I just get ugly looks from her when she see's me but that is also due to other circumstances that occurred between my ex sister in law (which was her biological sister) and my brother. but after that we ended up making up and started talking again and became close again and again I figured I could say something with out being put on a pedestal by her so one night I told her sister in law just to look out for this dance teacher that she was being taught by because she was drama and had drama causing issues and word got out which I didn't mind but some how word got back to my so called bff and she decided wtf I how could she, why would she say those things.. and believed every word a lady she barely knew instead of confiding in me and asking me what I said and what happed so again we had drama again and omg was I done and annoyed but I decided that I should go and talk to the girl like 2 months later and apologize and see what happens again and go from there . Ok I know this was a long story but i had to tell it to get to the bringing in the 2013 Yeayeee! not really.
So between Aug-Dec we were having like some kind of stupid issues between me, her and this other girl whom I became real close with and I love her to death she is one of the most kind hearted and loving people I have ever met. sorry any way we were going through things and only with her was it bad she would get mad at the littlest things and become jealous and not talk to me for a few days then call me and say I need to talk to you I was getting super sick of it cause one I was being me and she wasn't liking it and 2 this would be the third time with in 2 stinking years that there was yet drama between me and her. So come Jan I was done cause I had sometime last year 2012 had introduced my cousin to her and she was part of the reason we were having drama again. And I was like great another issue involving a third person. so in the months of Jan-Mar me and my cousin were of and on arguing and then make up and finally all our arguing turned into a fist fight which is totally dumb but all because I let other people control my life and that girl was but also I was not happy with my cousin still being friends with my ex friend/enemy so all of that led to me completely cutting her out of my life and disowning my cousin.
And as of now me and that girl will never be friends again and my cousin is no longer a cousin and year that is what ended up bringing in my new 2013 yr yeayee me lol. but finally in the month of april all that drama finally started settling down cause my cousin had moved back out of salt lake. And I never heard anything every again. SUPER STOKED!!!! omg.
And then I was offically able to move on with my life one good thing happened in january though the company I was nearly working for a year for helped me find another job a good paying one and I started in january of 2013 and then me and my husband in Feb started looking for a home. We had found two but bid on them and did not get chosen and I knew something else was in store for our lives and in april we had had a big issue that could of lead my husband to be put in jail. And out of a job so I knew then why we didn't get the homes we wanted.
But something good had come out of that issue and it was me and him changing our lives around drastically like a complete 360 degrees we both decided to stop drinking and I started going back to church (have currently been back since may and still attending and i love it) and we started praying more and I must say each and every day my testimony grows and grows and my faith in prayer gets stronger and stronger I am completely happy with where my life is now and I love it.
I know this has been a long one but I wanted to a lil catch up if you say. but also one thing I don't know if any of you have read my other blog but its all about my PCOS ( polycycstic ovarian syndrom) but I have been trying to have a baby for 8+ yrs now and due to my PCOS it has been really hard to conceive and any one with PCOS would know. but I am happy to announce that we are finally having a baby YEAYEEE!!! so I will be blogging about that journey in my other blog.
I am exreamly excited for this new relieved journey ahead of me and can't wait to share it with you all.
Thanks for reading xoxo
Hokulani
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